Where I belong

We all must reached that one point in life where we seriously had no idea what to do or where to go. Should I follow my heart or should I do what’s convenient at the moment ? Some people follow other people because they did not know what to do at the moment, but I chose to simply try a lot of different things. There are a lot of problems in my life that most people don’t know about and I don’t have the time to kiss and tell, that is when the “judgement” and the “gossip” start, which I could not care less. This blog is like my open diary.


If you have followed me or if you really know me for a long time, you’d know how much I love to cook, and I’ve encountered a lot of problems along the way. Kumara Batik is the online batik company I have tried to build but it was discontinued earlier this year. I traveled to the small villages in search of the high quality and authentic Indonesian Batik Tulis (hand-drawn batik). I love my culture and I would love Batik to be famous and known in the world one day. However, I don’t feel this is the time yet. I couldn’t feel the spark that I once had.

Not until I start to go back into the kitchen, and remember that my best friend once said to me to “not try too hard, try making something simple, back to basic and gain that passion back”. That is exactly what I did, and amazing things happened.


My @nanacakeboutique online cake business on instagram which I built almost two years ago is growing faster than ever. I can feel the excitement again. I have a website for my business ,click here. I think it’s important to try a lot of things in life because the things you liked the most now might not be the same two,five or ten years later, or maybe it might be the same. Trying different things in life like working in an office as an administrator or trying to go into trading business open my eyes and my heart to many possibilities and opportunities that I could have grabbed, I just have to choose one path, and the best path for my life.

Many people would say “If I were you, I would do this and that” but no they won’t, because they are NOT you. They don’t feel what you feel ,they don’t think like you think and they definitely do not have the same experience as you do. I believe if I want to be successful I have to be myself and not trying to be someone else, I have to be a strong confident woman who sometimes just doesn’t give a damn about what other people think. This is my life journey, whether I make it to the top, just in the middle or if I fall, the one who’s going to feel it the most is me. So I have decided, the only way I want to reach the top is to be where I really belong. Even after trying a lot of different things, my heart does not change one bit because once you love, you’d never forget.

Life Journey

I’ve always talked about my culinary journey. How about my life journey ? What leads me to this awesome culinary adventure ? What my life was like before cooking ? People always judge me without even knowing the story of my life, or even worse when they judge me without even knowing me in person, but that’s just how people are.

I was born on 4th August 1996 in a very traditional home. Both my parents were bankers but since 1994 my mom has been dedicating her life to take care of my brother and me. I didn’t born with a silver spoon in my mouth, I had limited toys to play with, my dad traveled all the time and he did not have time to spend with his kids. However, if he didn’t do what he did, I would not be able to do all these things that I want to do now. When I was 13 years old I moved to Singapore and finished my high school there and got my O level certificate. I continued my studies to Melbourne, Australia for about 6 months. My relationship with my family was getting worse, I didn’t even miss my dad at that time. I moved again to Wellington,New Zealand for about a year and finished my diploma. I moved back to Indonesia and created Nana Cake Boutique.

When people read this, most people will think “everything always goes right in her life”, “she has got everything she needs”. What people don’t know is the struggle behind every story. People think that it’s nice to study abroad and move from one place to another, travel the world, but the truth is you get lonely. You moved so much you don’t even know your friends anymore. It’s also not easy to adapt with new people and new environment. When you get used to it, you had to move back home again, and you had to adapt AGAIN. So it’s not as easy as you think. Things don’t always go your way but you just had to make it work somehow and people didn’t know the struggle behind it all. So be thankful with what you have and where you are now. If you told me that your life is bad, that’s because you make it bad. Life is full of choices, whether you’re happy or sad that’s because of the choices you make. If you chose to be happy, you will be. If you chose to be sad and you wanted people to pitty you and listen to why your life falls apart, then you will be.