pastrychef – Mon Voyage Culinaire

We all must reached that one point in life where we seriously had no idea what to do or where to go. Should I follow my heart or should I do what’s convenient at the moment ? Some people follow other people because they did not know what to do at the moment, but I chose to simply try a lot of different things. There are a lot of problems in my life that most people don’t know about and I don’t have the time to kiss and tell, that is when the “judgement” and the “gossip” start, which I could not care less. This blog is like my open diary.

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If you have followed me or if you really know me for a long time, you’d know how much I love to cook, and I’ve encountered a lot of problems along the way. Kumara Batik is the online batik company I have tried to build but it was discontinued earlier this year. I traveled to the small villages in search of the high quality and authentic Indonesian Batik Tulis (hand-drawn batik). I love my culture and I would love Batik to be famous and known in the world one day. However, I don’t feel this is the time yet. I couldn’t feel the spark that I once had.

Not until I start to go back into the kitchen, and remember that my best friend once said to me to “not try too hard, try making something simple, back to basic and gain that passion back”. That is exactly what I did, and amazing things happened.

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My @nanacakeboutique online cake business on instagram which I built almost two years ago is growing faster than ever. I can feel the excitement again. I have a website for my business ,click here. I think it’s important to try a lot of things in life because the things you liked the most now might not be the same two,five or ten years later, or maybe it might be the same. Trying different things in life like working in an office as an administrator or trying to go into trading business open my eyes and my heart to many possibilities and opportunities that I could have grabbed, I just have to choose one path, and the best path for my life.

Many people would say “If I were you, I would do this and that” but no they won’t, because they are NOT you. They don’t feel what you feel ,they don’t think like you think and they definitely do not have the same experience as you do. I believe if I want to be successful I have to be myself and not trying to be someone else, I have to be a strong confident woman who sometimes just doesn’t give a damn about what other people think. This is my life journey, whether I make it to the top, just in the middle or if I fall, the one who’s going to feel it the most is me. So I have decided, the only way I want to reach the top is to be where I really belong. Even after trying a lot of different things, my heart does not change one bit because once you love, you’d never forget.

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It has been a few months since I started selling cakes online. There were ups and downs, of course. Sometimes when I saw other professional chefs I got scared, I lost my confidence. The business itself wasn’t in my plan at first. I’m young, I still want to learn a lot more but not everything you want could be bought with money. People keep telling me that I’m young, that I still have a lot of time, that it’s easier for me to learn stuff. However, I think they’re wrong, even if you’re young, does not mean you can just relax, does not mean you learn better, I think someone learns better when there’s willingness, when there’s passion.

I’ve been selling typical indonesian cakes and they are totally different from french patisserie. Sometimes I felt that the skills that I’ve learned before are just useless because I no longer used them. I was really upset but I know not everything goes as plan and you just have to make the best out of it. I started looking for ingredients and equipments for french patisserie (really difficult to find). I made an entremet, my favourite dish when I was in school. It felt amazing and I fell in love with it all over again.

One day one of my loyal customers ordered a Valrhona Opera Cake. It has so many memories, it was indescribable. When I made it, it reminded me of the reasons why I did all of these, I love to cook, it’s my forever love. I realize I have to fight my fear of other people’s capability of creating things that are so much better me. Do what you can do best and keep learning. A dream is like the moon and the stars. Many people know it exists but not many people believe that they could actually get there, not many people are willing to work that hard to get there. In the past people would think that it’s not possible to reach the moon, but eventually people found a way to get there and actually landed on the moon, now the impossible becomes possible. I’m here believing that I would get there someday, I would try my very best and if I didn’t reach it, that’s okay too,I know something better would come along to those who work hard enough for their dreams. Now I really understand what “nothing is impossible” means.